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"Sesungguhnya rahmat-Ku mendahului murka-Ku" - Hadith Qudsi.

Day 41

Blessing, blessing, blessing.. that's all I got. Being a wife on the day of 41th. Time flies. I am now a wife. A year ago, no boyfriends, no special one, no crush, no one got crush on me (huhu) never thought of them all.. jauh sekali untuk berkahwin.. Hm.. Simple.. That's called Jodoh, Qada' and Qadar.. and all I wanna say, ALHAMDULILLAH.. :D All praises only for Him.. The Almighty..

I'm not a good girl. But thanks to Allah, for me having my parents.. and everything I've gone through.. cehh.. cam banyak sangat plak pengalaman hidup.. bajet leh wat travelog.. haha ;P Agak bersosial juga dulu.. berfesyen.. kesimpulannya, tak muslimah langsung, solat pun lubang2.. Tapi, saya suka Hadith Qudsi yang saya petik di atas.. Ya, semua orang lakukan kesilapan, yang penting, kita kembali... NIKMAT ALLAH MEMANG TAK TERHINGGA..

Allah kurniakan saya seorang suami, Muhammad Zulfadhli bin Yusof.. :D (I am now speechless, thinking of this) jari2 saya kaku sementara di papan keyboard.. Saya cuma mampu berdoa, Allah tetapkan hati, tetapkan iman.. Semoga Allah tunjukkan kami jalan yang lurus.. Jalan menuju keredhaannya, dan anugerahkan kami zuriat yang membantu agama-Nya.

Antara post saya yang terawal, "Kita kena sentiasa bersyukur.." It's all back to that again. I promise to never PANDANG KE BELAKANG lagi. Kerana itu semua kunci PEROSAK HATI saya YANG DAPAT MELUPAKAN SEGALA NIKMAT YANG ALLAH BAGI..

Saya berdoa, hari ini, esok dan hari2 seterusnya, saya akan sentiasa bersyukur.. dan teruskan menjalani hidup dengan sebaik2nya...

Thank You Allah (Alhamdulillah)

I was so far from you

Yet to me you were always so close

I wandered lost in the dark

I closed my eyes toward the signs

You put in my way

I walked everyday

Further and further away from you

Ooooo Allah, you brought me home

I thank You with every breath I take.

Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah

All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah

Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah

All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.

I never thought about

All the things you have given to me

I never thanked you once

I was too proud to see the truth

And prostrate to you

Until I took the first step

And that’s when you opened the doors for me

Now Allah, I realized what I was missing

By being far from you.

Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah

All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah

Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah

All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.

Allah, I wanna thank You

I wanna thank you for all the things that you’ve done

You’ve done for me through all my years I’ve been lost

You guided me from all the ways that were wrong

And did you give me hope

O Allah, I wanna thank you

I wanna thank You for all the things that you’ve done

You’ve done for me through all my years I’ve been lost

You guided me from all the ways that were wrong

I wanna thank You for bringing me home

Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah

All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah

Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah

All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.

Artist: Maher Zain

Album: Thank You Allah

Copyright: Awakening Records 2009

Bersama - Devotees

Kita pernah bersama
Menempuh onak dan duka
Tidak pernah putus asa
Walau dugaan datang melanda

Dikau pernah bertanya
Bila bahgia akan tiba
Ku berkata bersabarlah
Serahkan saja pada yang ESA

Bila masanya menjelma
Kebahgiaan akan tiba
Namun tidak mungkin ku lupa
Kenangan indah kita bersama

Menempuh onak cabaran
Dan liku hidup yang panjang
Tidak mungkin hidup ini sepi
Selagi ku masih di sini

Kita pernah bersama
Menempuh onak dan duka
Tidak pernah putus asa
Walau dugaan datang melanda

Bila masanya menjelma
Kebahgiaan akan tiba
Namun tidak mungkin ku lupa
Kenangan indah kita bersama

Menempuh onak cabaran
Dan liku hidup yang panjang
Tidak mungkin hidup ini sepi
Selagi ku masih di sini

Kini terungkai sudah
kisah hidup kita
Berbekal taat dan sabar
Pastikan berjaya

PurpleLilac: is listening to the song on IKIM.fm while writing this post, MODE: Teringat kenangan tahun lepas... Walaupun apa terjadi... I still love my students... Anytime, Anywhere... Sampai Bila2... They have my prayers... Always...

EXACTLY

i am exactly where i need to be

i need to be exactly where i am
i am a blessing manifest
i can undress the moment
naked time unwinds beneath my mind
and from within i find the kind of beauty
only i can find

i am exactly where i need to be
i need to be exactly where i am
i am surrendering so willingly
to be the perfect me inside this now
and truly how else could it be
destiny she blesses me
destiny she blesses me
when i try to fight or run
i only wind up back at square one
when i think i know what’s best for me
fate she takes me back
to exactly where i need to be

i am exactly where i need to be
i need to be exactly where i am
i am divinely timed and shining brightly
yes i believe that there’s a purpose just for me
yes i believe that we are light
and we shine infinitely

i am exactly where i need to be
i need to be exactly where i am
i am not aimlessly existing see
i am in perfect harmony with universal energy
and i am truly free when i accept my own divinity
look at me look at me closely
tell me exactly what you see
if you are paying attention you will now begin ascension of the mind
why, because if you look at me just right you will see a kiss
for it took a kiss to make this breath exist
the intersection of my mother’s and father’s lips
to touch twist and perfect what came next to produce me

look at me and you will see the breeze
the breeze it took to shake the leaves to make
my mother’s hair move, my father dare touch it and say
please may i have a kiss
yes the breeze made me exist
and if you want to get even deeper into this
when you look at me you will see a cloud
the cloud it took to form the storm to make the breeze shake the leaves to
inspire the liplock – yes a raindrop will pop up out these words
you heard me right

if you look at me close enough you will see a dark stormy night
and what is night
well night ain’t night without its polar opposite of sunlight
so if you watch the way my hands sway
you’ll see the light of day
and everyday is a testament to the sediment of the earth’s core
it’s ever spinning enormous force so if you look at me just right
you will see a spark of the source
but the most fascinating thing about this, and it’s true
is that if you look at me just right, you see you
it’s only what you perceive how you believe the space between
you and me
that creates reality

so when i sing you can feel it
when i cry you can heal it
when i speak words you can be the words i speak by singing with me
peace love free, peace love free
peace love free, peace love free
peace love free, peace love free
peace love free, peace love free

when i try to fight or run
i only wind up back at square one
when i think i know what’s best for me
fate she takes me back
to exactly where i need to be
and when i am alone and full of fear
i just remember the rising sun always appears
everyday miracles, miracles that i see
well they take me back
they take me back
they take me back
to exactly where i need to be

by Amy Spielberg

- taken from http://this-inspired-life.blogspot.com/

Hari ini 31 Ogos...

Firman Allah S.W.T, "La yukallifallahu nafsan illa wus'aha..." dipetik daripada Surah Al-Baqarah, Ayat 286 (2:286) yang bermaksud, "Allah tidak memberati seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya...".

Saya bukanlah orang yang layak nk mghuraikan, maksud ayat suci Al-Quran ini. Tapi saya sangat suka ayat ini. Ketika dugaan datang, inilah antara ayat yang bermain di fikiran saya. Kali pertama ayat begitu terasa pada saya ialah apabila saya datang mengadu dengan umi, terlupa dah pn pasal apa.. Tapi ayat inilah yang dibaca..

Antara sebab kenapa saya suka ayat ini ialah, di saat2 saya goyang, saya dapat merasa yang saya juga kuat. Rasa juga yang Allah sayang akan hamba-Nya yang tah hape2 tah ni... (Banyak dosa)...

Kembali kepada tajuk... Saya bukanlah patriotik orangnya. Namun berada dalam negara yang secara fizikalnya sudah 53 tahun merdeka, saya mesti bersyukur pada Allah kerana kita tidak di Palestin... Merdeka pasti berbeza pada setiap orang, pada saya sangat mudah, kalender bertukar ke 31hb hari ini kesannya lebih mendalam pada saya kerana sesuatu yang lain...

Seperti yang saya katakan td, saya tidak patriotik, mudahnya merdeka pada saya dan ramai juga saya kira yang bersetuju dengan saya, bukan sekadar fizikal... Ya, kita bebas daripada British, tapi, apa sebenarnya yang memisahkan kita antara pendidikan dunia dan agama? Saya guru, jadi itu skop yang paling jelas saya boleh nampak.. Saya deal dengan pelajar setiap hari.. dan itulah yang saya nampak.. Tapi mengenai 31 Ogos hari ini, bukanlah ini yang saya nak coretkan..

Pada saya ini ialah sesuatu yang penting. (bunyi macam lebih penting daripada kemerdekaan sesebuah negara.. hmm.. mungkin..) Bermakna esok ialah 1/9/2010. Hari perkahwinan saya makin dekat. Itulah point saya sebenarnya.. (bunyi macam gatal nak kawin.. mungkin..) Saya tak pernah kahwin. (Bunyi macam lawak - memangla kan..) memang dari hati ayat ni.. Tunang saya pernah sebut macam ni masa mula2 perhubungan dulu.. taktaulah apa maksud dia masa tu.. So many things come to my mind.. Seeing all the married cousins, married friends.. listening to others' marriage stories.. and I'm wondering how mine would be.. Seeing people's kids.. again, wondering how mine would be.. Hm.. jauh si Rinie ni pegi ni.. I don't know.. May be yes.. But ironically I'm teaching others' children.. How does it like when I teach mine? My point here, looks like I'm not ready yet... Nak baca suratkhabar n tengok tiwi pn tak sanggup semenjak dua menjak ni.. Makin teruk plak sepanjang Ramadhan ni.. [Sigh..]

Teringat post of my sister cousin, "Anak tu amanah, keje pun amanah...", [Longer sigh...] Can I cope with my life as wife, mother, teacher, daughter, sister segala??? "La yukallifallahu nafsan illa wus'aha..." means I can do this! Yes, certainly!

I pray to Allah, to always guide me, make me strong, together with my Husband2B.. Marriage is such a pure thing.. (not the best word) I believe in one thing will lead to another.. :) Please pray for me as well...

In sya' Allah

by Maher Zain

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on

You feel so lost

That you're so alone

All you see is night

And darkness all around

You feel so helpless

You can't see which way to go

Don't despair and never loose hope

'Cause Allah is always by your side

In sya' Allah, In sya' Allah, In sya' Allah

You'll find your way

Everytime you commit one more mistake

You feel that you can't repent

And that it's way too late

You're so confused, wrong decisions you have made

Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don't despair and never loose hope

'Cause Allah is always by your side

In sya' Allah, In sya' Allah, In sya' Allah

You'll find your way

In sya' Allah, In sya' Allah, In sya' Allah

You'll find your way

Turn to Allah

He never far away

Put your trust in Him

Raise your hands and pray

Oh.. Ya Allah

Guide my steps don't let me go astray

You the only one that showed me the way

Showed me the way, showed me the way...

In sya' Allah, In sya' Allah, In sya' Allah

You'll find your way

In sya' Allah, In sya' Allah, In sya' Allah

You'll find your way

In sya' Allah, In sya' Allah, In sya' Allah

You'll find your way

PurpleLilac: Amiin.. :)

Stay The Same

Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.

I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

- Joey McIntyre

I used to dedicate this song to one of my students.. Asking him to stay the way he is, wherever he will go then.. Having him as my student is a proud, regardless of his results.

I was browsing songs in my phone and came across this song, and have the feeling to listen to it. It is now really relevant to me.. at this moment. This is the song that I need right now. In fact, every time I hear this song, I can feel every single line of it. But at this very moment, every single word really talks to me... :))

p/s: To listen to this song, please browse to My PurpleLilacList.. Track No. 1.. :))