How's life changed

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
Memang update blog kena setahun sekali je kott.. huhu

Alhamdulillah, time cuti sekolah, memang relax sikit..
agak bertenang..
Yang sebenonye.. dah sarat dah..
Hari nie genap 35 minggu menunggu cahaya mata yang ketiga..
How time flies.... macam roket..
anak2 dah besar2.. dah pandai2.. :D :D
Many things happened..
Just hope it will get better and better..
Going to have another child, another newborn baby..
Going to deliver... huhuhu...
Robbi yassir, wa la tu'assir ya Allah...
of course la takut, kan..
Allahu akbar..
Aku nak minta yang baik2 je ni, ya Allah..
Kau perkenankanlah..
Berilah kami kekuatan.. aku & suami ku..
untuk keluarga kami, untuk ummah, untuk agama-Mu..
Permudahkanlah Ya Allah......

As a teacher,
I also have a plan ya Allah..
insya Allah, for the better..
please guide me ya Allah..
make me strong..
Show me the way..
Love my students..
Give them strength..
Show them the way..

As a mother to Zuhairah & Muhammad..
I'm really afraid I couldn't make time for them.. (sedihhh)
afraid that I couldn't be a good mama..
My Zuhairah dah banyak being independent.. (nak nangess....)
Muhammad pulak, sangat manja ni..
but they have learnt a lot :) :) :)
Especially Muhammad
Duduk seharian dengan dia, baru tau, dah banyak vocab dia
ABC, 123, colours, shapes, dia dah tau, walau blm 3 tahun..
walau blm pandai cakap.. hahaha..
Zuhairah boleh beza English & BM
she knows in BM 'e' for epal instead of 'a' for apple :)
dah masuk kelas iqra' malam, tahfiz di Pasti, ada juga solat tak disuruh :)
I know I could have done better for both of them.. hmmmm

Mudahkan aku ya Allah..
Anak2 ini masa depan agama......
referring to my old post, masa nk dekat sangat nk kawen tu..
inilah yang dibimbangkan....
Ya Allah, bantulah aku....
10 years from now..
Zuhairah is 15
Muhammad is 13
Anas is 10 (insya Allah :)
Can I be their best friend???

tula, fikir nk sambung belajar, for farabians....
for work, for students..
just wanted to perform my best at work
Ehsan kan, bak kata dalam cerita Al-Khawater tu..
org muslim kena hebat
hebat berbahasa inggeris..
explore the world..
semua tu tanggungjawab aku tu..
Anak, students, kerja..
Suami...
Hmm..
Maafkan sayang ye abang...
banyak sangat hak2 yang tak tertunai..
hanya kerana abang begitu memahami
menghargai, mengimani jiwa seorang suami..
Sayang abang sampai syurga........
Ya Allah, ampunkan dosa2 suamiku ini.....
Redhakan segala amalan2nya..
mudahkan hisabnya kelak, mudahkan dia masuk syurga-Mu ya Allah....

Mama, Abah..
ampunkan dosa mereka juga..
mudahkan hisab mereka, mudahkan mereka masuk syurga-Mu ya Allah....

Peliharalah diri ini
agar terus istiqomah di jalan-Mu
hindarkanku daripada godaan syaitan..
hindarkanku daripada godaan syaitan..
hindarkanku daripada godaan syaitan..
hindarkanku daripada godaan syaitan..
hindarkanku daripada godaan syaitan..

Aamiin
Aamiin
Aamiin
Aamiin
Aamiin
Aamiin
Aamiin

Setelah sekian lama...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful..
Selawat dan salam ke atas Junjungan Nabi Muhammad sollallahu alaihi wa sallam..
Allahumma solli 'ala Sayyidina Muhammad, wa 'ala aalihi Muhammad..

Alhamdulillah, thummalhamdulillah....
:)

Aku mencoret lagi akhirnya...
Sebuah cita-cita, entah bila bisa tercapai...
Menjadi seorang penulis... :)

4 Januari 2015
4 tahun telah berlalu selepas entry terakhir dicoret...
Kisah seorang ibu yang buat pertama kalinya bermalam di atas katil hospital selama 2 malam, menemani anakanda tersayang..
Zuhairatul Hakeemah, puteriku sayang..
Kakak dah besar :)
Kakak dah ada adik pun.. hihi..

[Reason for this entry]

Though I always wanted to write again.. :)
Something, that really made me to write..
Then, a few of something came to my mind..

The somethings are:

1. Jeremy Little
2. My favourite Burger
3. Maulidur Rasul
4. Both my heros had fever

Look at the very #1!
Huhuhu!
Jeremy Little???
It is actually Allahyarham Jeremy Ahmad Mikael Little.
Something stunned me about him.
He finally found Islam :)
He went to Makkah :)
He 'returned' there :')
He did 'some' dakwah! associated with Mufti Ismail Menk!

Then, why did I so surprised?
Hmm.. Yes.  I know.  I am not supposed to be judgmental about his past :(
But it is not his past that I am going to talk about.  Indeed, I don't really know about his past pun..
Just that I know, that he was not that religious.. That was what I know.. and not necessarily true pun.. :(
What matter was how his life had ended.............
Me is full of jealousy...........
It is always been everybody's dream to end life there... Subhanallah!

Alhamdulillah, Jeremy Little dah dapat Husnul Khotimah...
Memang jeles ya Allah....

Ya Allah, berikanku, suamiku, ibu bapa kami, adik-beradik kami, anak-anak kami, seluruh saudara kami, sahabat2 kami, pelajar2 kami, guru2 kami, pejuang2 Islam, pemimpin2 kami, seluruh muslimin & muslimat HUSNUL KHOTIMAH ya Allah......

Jeremy's last post on his Instagram..

Masya Allah... :')

2. My favourite Burger

~ to be continued ;)

Teacher Rinie Mama Zuhairah

3d2n Holiday Package

3h2n holiday package in HTAR, Klang, what did I get? - A whole new bunch of experiences, since it was my 1st time for this 28 years life of mine being warded in the hospital.. Plus, as a mother to take care of my 'lil one at as her early as 7th day of life.

As always, I'm not thinking much, I just wanted to be there for my daughter (she was admitted a night earlier). After giving birth, there's nothing much I could do for her at home, neither for myself. Husband and mama were quite hesitated that I can handle my daughter myself at the hospital. Even at first we thought that there would be me and husband to take care of me Zuhairah.

I went straight to 6th floor with Abah Zuhairah when we reached the hospital at about 9 o'clock that morning. I was told by a nurse there to breastfeed Zuhairah. The last night doctor asked

me whether the 'lamp' (the phototherapy lamp) has been switched off. I just said yes, because the lamp was no longer there. It means that Zuhairah has been 'lamped' for the entire night. I was relieved to not to see her under the lamp. It can tear my heart.

A nurse told me, Zuhairah will have to wait for the dr. pakar to check her and then we both will be placed at the Yellow Zone, at the ground floor. Oh, I forgot to mention, Abah Zuhairah was waiting outside the 6C ward, alone and curious. I continued the breastfeeding. When she's done, I put her back on her bed and went out to see her Abah for a while to tell him the situation. Dr. pakar said Zuhairah's jaundice is ok, need no lamp anymore, they just have to monitor her rashes on her forehead and some of here and there.

It was almost 11 a.m. when we went down to Yellow Zone. Zuhairah was sleeping. For the whole 3d2n there, Zuhairah didn't cry for no reason, (She's a very nice girl :) She just cried went she's hungry. It was the 2nd night that cried for milk for every 30 minutes from 3.30 a.m. to 7.00 a.m. And the next morning I was so sleepy... huhu.

I made some friends there, especially, Sabarina and her baby, Alisya Ramadhani (was born on 1st Ramadhan) which was at the next bed to me. We shared stories about us and our babies. I made friends in the pantry as well when we had lunch or dinner. So many stories about their experiences that I can learn from. The doctors and nurses were all very kind. Zuhairah, we have to thank them so much, ok. Doctors with their very well explanation, nurse with theirs helps and guidance. I learnt how to wrap Zuhairah nicely. I learnt how to clean Zuhairah the right way (for I never change her diaper before I reach the hospital). I learnt how to breastfeed her the right way too.

I learnt the most important thing, how to take care of my daughter at the most! I don't want to ever come back again! I was touched when I texted Abah Zuhairah, "Lepas ni kte jaga Zuhairah betul2 ye.." I have to know a lot of things to take the best care of Zuhairah. I just can't stop learning on that. I've learnt that I can be independent, not to depend too much on Nenek Mama and Abah Zuhairah. My walk at the hospital was much faster than as home. That was what really made Nenek Mama worry. Hm.. I don't know, I just felt stronger. Zuhairah made me stronger. She was the source of my strength. That's what Allah given me.

I learnt things that I would not learn if I wasn't there. Allah made everything for reason. He knows the best. Thank Allah for this opportunity. And the great feeling, (a mixture, indescribable feeling) when we were told that we'll be discharged and the moment when we left the Yellow Zone.

Ya Allah, please, give Zuhairah a good health to grow up to be a good kid. Give us (Mama & Abah) strength to raise Zuhairah the right Islamic way to be a person that useful for Islam. Ameen, ya Allah...

2011 Resolution: A Wish List

Once, I heard a motivator said, we must write everything that we want. And many successful people achieved what they want by writing it on a piece (or pieces) of paper. Well, in Islam, we cannot believe it just happened like that, just because we write our dream or wish on paper. Allah has wrote everything and we have to make efforts to achieve what we want, and not to forget to raise our hands and make doa :)

But, psychologically, writing them on paper might be effective rather than just having a thought of them. For me, I might see them clearly rather that they scattered on my brain without focus (because they are too many dreams! haha!).

So, this is my list :)

1. Getting married - Done actually :)

2. Buying a car - Also done - An Elite Viva 1.0, Auto lagi :) (Now my husband dah pandai sket2 drive :D - Skang dh malas nk drive.. bia dia je drive.. ;P

3. Having a baby (Anak2 yg soleh, dan dapat membantu agama Allah)

4. Nak gi Mekah dengan Hubby :)

5. Nak tulis buku..

6. Nak jadi motivator (A professional one, :) hehe)

7. Nak habiskan at least 10 buah buku setahun. Plus nak selalu habiskan baca majalah Solusi yang selalunya sekerat jalan or skip2..

8. Nak score 100% in English, so far, still ada 2 orang.

9. Nak more and more score A in English, Alhamdulillah, after 2 years, 3 orang :)

10. Nak score A at least 10 orang KH.

11. Nak gi Aquaria!! - Done!! Dah g.. hubby bawak.. :D Thanks Hubby..!

12. Nak gi lagi Pulan Perhentian..

My Passion - Part 2

Filling the form, I just follow some people said, this course is easy to take and to get. Office Management and Technology, pasal keje2 pejabat kot.. no idea what is the study about..

Excited! To get a place in a university :) Never thought of that despite of my poor results.. But Alhamdulillah.. Rezeki Allah bagi... :)

Saya dapat belajar di luar negeri, hehe.. (luar negeri Selangor.. ;p) Buat pertama kalinya berpisah jauh dari mama abah, but I have my cousin studying there at that time, Sarah. Like I said, more to excited.. tak rasa takut sangat..

I'm a latecomer ;p Ini pengakuan yg sgt sincere. Malu, nak berubah.. hm.. Harap2 boleh.. huhu, so, my first class, kena duduk depan sebab datang lambat, setiap yang berlaku ada hikmah kan.. Saya percaya itulah titik tolaknya.. Orang cakap, duduk lagi depan, lagi banyak ilmu boleh dapat, so, setiap hari itulah tempat saya, kawan pun takde, tak berapa nak bercomunicate dengan orang, as a result, I have become, more focus.

Semakin score quiz ke quiz, test ke test. 3.60 GPA semester pertama. Anugerah Dekan. Saya pun tak sangka saya jadi pelajar cemerlang di Universiti :) (actually ramai lagi yang cemerlang, cuma saya ni, tak berapa hebat antara yang cemerlang.. ;p) 3.70 in the second semester, 3.50 3rd, 3.80 4th.. Semester kelima praktikal, just lulus or gagal sahaja, so, just carry forward the CGPA 3.6 something rasanya masa tu.. Tapi, biasa la.. makin lama, makin selesa, makin main. Saya mempunyai peluang cerah untuk dapat Anugerah Naib Canselor. Tapi, bukan nak salahkan kawan2, tapi memang seronok duduk sebilik dengan 2 orang classmate yang lain, pakat2 skip class sama2.. haha.. results.. 3.12 GPA for the final semester.. Melayang Anugerah Naib Canselor, tak dapat nak jadi orang yang ke-13 dalam diploma tu nak pakai selempang. (Ada 12 orang penerima Anugerah Naib Canselor Diploma saya tahun tu) I graduated my Diploma with 3.52 CGPA. Subjek OB (Organizational Behavior) dapat C. Banyak betul nak kena baca... Huhu.. Alasan.. ;p

With a quite good diploma results, I applied to change field for my Bachelor. Perasan pandai! Applied for Bachelor of Business Administration (Business Economics) in (still) UiTM. Bila orang tanya, saya jawab, "Tak nak jadi secretary dah, nak jadi boss pulak," (Office Management and Technology is mostly about becoming a secretary or a P.A, Personal Assistant). Rezeki jugak, Allah bagi :) saya dapat. Terus dapat pada hujung bulan November 2004 selepas tamat Diploma Oktober 2004 (Sempat lagi keje kat Mydin dalam 3 minggu).

Perasan sangat! Subjek tough2.. Langsung takde dapat A, kecuali subjek Mandarin, CGPA? 2.9 something... Frust toksah cakap... Strive gile macam daki gunung 95 darjah... tapi, ntahlah... dah jadi average balik.. - to be continued

Rise and Shine

Rise and Shine

Dear today, here I come

Fair bright and just right

You're even more glitter than the star of last night

Wonder what on earth Allah will destine me this time

Rise and shine

Fair and bright

Just fine

Smile and sigh

All are given with whys

So that we thank Allah

That's just the reason why we're on His land

Future is open even is decided

Lets Allah gives us strength and faith

To live in this world and hereafter

Towards Jannah

by T.R

17 October 2010

8 something in the morning..

(^__^)

Blessingsssssssssssssssssssss

"Sesungguhnya rahmat-Ku mendahului murka-Ku" - Hadith Qudsi.

Day 41

Blessing, blessing, blessing.. that's all I got. Being a wife on the day of 41th. Time flies. I am now a wife. A year ago, no boyfriends, no special one, no crush, no one got crush on me (huhu) never thought of them all.. jauh sekali untuk berkahwin.. Hm.. Simple.. That's called Jodoh, Qada' and Qadar.. and all I wanna say, ALHAMDULILLAH.. :D All praises only for Him.. The Almighty..

I'm not a good girl. But thanks to Allah, for me having my parents.. and everything I've gone through.. cehh.. cam banyak sangat plak pengalaman hidup.. bajet leh wat travelog.. haha ;P Agak bersosial juga dulu.. berfesyen.. kesimpulannya, tak muslimah langsung, solat pun lubang2.. Tapi, saya suka Hadith Qudsi yang saya petik di atas.. Ya, semua orang lakukan kesilapan, yang penting, kita kembali... NIKMAT ALLAH MEMANG TAK TERHINGGA..

Allah kurniakan saya seorang suami, Muhammad Zulfadhli bin Yusof.. :D (I am now speechless, thinking of this) jari2 saya kaku sementara di papan keyboard.. Saya cuma mampu berdoa, Allah tetapkan hati, tetapkan iman.. Semoga Allah tunjukkan kami jalan yang lurus.. Jalan menuju keredhaannya, dan anugerahkan kami zuriat yang membantu agama-Nya.

Antara post saya yang terawal, "Kita kena sentiasa bersyukur.." It's all back to that again. I promise to never PANDANG KE BELAKANG lagi. Kerana itu semua kunci PEROSAK HATI saya YANG DAPAT MELUPAKAN SEGALA NIKMAT YANG ALLAH BAGI..

Saya berdoa, hari ini, esok dan hari2 seterusnya, saya akan sentiasa bersyukur.. dan teruskan menjalani hidup dengan sebaik2nya...

Thank You Allah (Alhamdulillah)

I was so far from you

Yet to me you were always so close

I wandered lost in the dark

I closed my eyes toward the signs

You put in my way

I walked everyday

Further and further away from you

Ooooo Allah, you brought me home

I thank You with every breath I take.

Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah

All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah

Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah

All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.

I never thought about

All the things you have given to me

I never thanked you once

I was too proud to see the truth

And prostrate to you

Until I took the first step

And that’s when you opened the doors for me

Now Allah, I realized what I was missing

By being far from you.

Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah

All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah

Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah

All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.

Allah, I wanna thank You

I wanna thank you for all the things that you’ve done

You’ve done for me through all my years I’ve been lost

You guided me from all the ways that were wrong

And did you give me hope

O Allah, I wanna thank you

I wanna thank You for all the things that you’ve done

You’ve done for me through all my years I’ve been lost

You guided me from all the ways that were wrong

I wanna thank You for bringing me home

Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah

All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah

Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah

All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.

Artist: Maher Zain

Album: Thank You Allah

Copyright: Awakening Records 2009